Looking for the Unknown: facing “the question”


As a kid, having all the answers to this very difficult question seemed like it was not a problem, nor a struggle in the slightest. It’s a question most people growing up have great difficulties answering. As a kid, I was so comfortable answering it without understanding its complexities. A child’s nature means not knowing the true meaning of this question. This youth is immune to the fright this question strikes in people. Unfortunately, as kids get older, answering this question does nothing but get more complicated and doubts start kicking in once our childhood immunity leaves us.

People of authority would ask me this critical question, and I would answer things like: astronaut, writer, teacher, hockey player, or soccer player. The question was, of course, “ What do you want to be when you’re older? “ People would obsess over this question that is really unpredictable and almost impossible to answer. Growing up, after realizing being a professional hockey player and soccer player at the same time was no longer an option, I then started seeing the true difficulties within this question. My ideas turned into doubts, and my friends,at once sharing a similar fever, were all going through the same thing. It was like searching for the unknown; looking for something you don’t even know much about, the future.

Once in my late teenage years, and once college came into my life, it became obvious that this question was no longer a playful one, and I apparently needed an answer right away. It’s the phase of young adulthood almost everyone faces; when one realizes he/she is unsure of what they want to become once they get older. It is then when I realized what I was actually looking for, it was no longer looking for the unknown. I realized that what I truly wanted in my future was mostly the same as my present; to keep close in touch with my friends, and to keep doing all the things that make me happy.

The fear in the question is the fear of the unknown, and to fear losing our current lives for another one that is less interesting. As for job searching, yes it is obviously really important to find a job that is successful, but only if that job keeps me happy and allows me to enjoy myself and life in general.

That is what i am looking for, a future that is much like my present, only successful. Oh, and I also want to start a business with either friends or girlfriend. It is unknown what the business will be about though, but that is sure to change as I get older, just like another unknown question I once had to face.

By: Jesse Comitogianni